The Next Big Thing Project!!

My friend and fellow author John Copenhaver recently tagged me in The Next Big Thing Project.

TNBT is basically an author chain-mail where you’re tagged to answer a questionnaire about you book — whether out in print or in development. The chain-mail rules are:

1. You have to answer nine questions about your book (or project).

2. You have to tag at least five other authors to complete the questionnaire on their website/blog, and put up their links.

I’ll be cross-posting my taggees’ questionnaires here as well. I think it’s a cool way to get to know the work of up-and-coming authors, and–of course–to enhance our profile.

So, meet the talented (and handsome) John Copenhaver who hooked me into this chain…

Author John Copenhaver

 

What is the title of the book?

Dodging and Burning.

Where did the idea come from for the book?

My inspiration came from two separate but connected events: My reading of Walter Benjamin’s analysis of photography, and my decision to come out of the closet as a gay man. Benjamin argues that photographs distort reality and only can be given value if paired with the right caption. Being in the closet is like being a photo without a caption. The only way to correct that distortion is to tell the story behind the façade. Dodging and Burning is the mystery behind a crime scene photograph, but more accurately it’s an exploration of the way photos can twist our understanding of others and ourselves if their captions remain unwritten, their stories untold.

What genre does your book fall under?

Literary Mystery.

What actors would you choose to play the part of your characters in a movie rendition?

I love this question, because I think about it a lot. Sadly, most of the actors I’d cast are dead. One of my main characters, Bunny Prescott, is based on Gene Tierney; in fact, other characters tell her that she resembles Tierney. But, to play fair, I’d cast Elle Fanning as Ceola (my earnest teenager), who has both gravitas and levity, Saoirse Ronan as Bunny (my love-confused debutant), who can be chilly and vulnerable, and Andrew Garfield (my wounded gay war photographer), who is wonderful at playing pained but not self-indulgent characters. I loved him in Never Let Me Go.

What is the one sentence synopsis of your book?

Two young women attempt to solve the mystery of the photograph of beautiful corpse only to discover that the true mystery lies in the heart of the photographer.

How long did it take you to write the first draft of the manuscript?

Three-years. Keep in mind of course I was working full time as an English teacher. It took several more years to whip it into shape.

Who or what inspired you to write this book?


It began at Bread Loaf English of English when I took a course called “Photography and Modernity.” It changed the way I looked at photography and, eventually, all visual media. Also, I read Margaret Atwood’s The Blind Assassin, a genre-bending novel, a masterpiece that skillfully weaves together low and high forms. And of course, my own personal journey out of the closet. My theme, as I see it, is the need for narrative. Images without narrative (or worse images with a false narrative) can twist our understanding of reality, pushing us further from empathy and deeper into darkness.

Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?

I’m represented by the fabulous Annie Bomke of ABLiteary and currently in search of a publisher.

For more about John Copenhaver, check out here.

Wilde Oats Publication!!

Wilde Oats Issue Five is out and includes my short story “In A Wine Phase.”

Finally, I have an answer to the question:  Where can I read your stuff (without having to pay for it)? You can check it out here.

Wilde Oats is a gay and bisexual fiction e-zine.  Here’s a link to the entire August issue.

So what else have I been doing?

Just finished a guest column for La Bloga on Charlie Vazquez’ PANIC! reading series.  It should be out either later today or next Sunday.

And I’ve been networking on Absolute Write, GayWriters.org and Queer Magazine Online.  Doing some beta reading and sharing triumphs and tribulations with other writers.

The revised manuscript is cranking along.  Happy Sunday to all.

Short Story Acceptance!!

After a bit of a publishing drought, I just got notified that my short story “In A Wine Phase” was accepted by the quarterly e-zine Wilde Oats.  The issue is slated to come out in August.

I wrote “In A Wine Phase” about a year ago.   It’s a quick look at a relationship in trouble, a 7-year itch kind of story, and it also deals with the meaning of family for gay men.  The story got a pass from another journal with some feedback from the editor, so I took another shot at it recently.  Really cool that sometimes when you put the extra work in, it pays off.

All in all, this is a pretty damn exciting time as I also have a column coming out shortly in La Bloga featuring an interview with YA author Alex Sanchez.  The article should be out this coming Sunday or the next.

So tonight:  a glass of champagne, a cigarette and feet up on the couch.

Richard Carroll Interview – Part Two

My interview with Richard Carroll continues…

ANDREW PETERS:  The ice is broken and I think I can ask you the “big question.”  What happened that night at Fire Island?

RICHARD CARROLL:  [clears throat] Basically, I put myself in a really bad situation.  Me and my cousin Matty dropped Ecstasy, we went to a club, threw back a lot of drinks, and this guy offered me GHB.  Honestly, there’s not much I remember from there.  GHB’s the kind of drug you have to be careful with.  Take a little, and you’re feeling great.  Take too much, and you’re basically comatose.  Obviously, I took too much.

AP:  So you overdosed?  There was also sexual assault involved.

RC:  Yeah. It took me awhile to accept the sexual assault part.  Y’know in the club scene, the “boothstore” scene, a lot of scenes, the boundaries are really blurry.  These weren’t guys who cornered me and attacked me.  We met at the club, dosed up together, things got pretty hot and heavy on the dance floor and I ended up going home with them, though I barely remember it.

AP:  That made it hard to accept the experience as rape?

RC:  Yeah, it definitely did.  For a long while, I kept asking myself what did I do wrong?  Or was I imagining that what happened wasn’t consensual or did I have the right to be angry at the guys for what happened?

AP:  Do you think it’s also harder to reconcile because we don’t normally think of men as victims?

RC:  For sure, that’s part of it.  I mean I had been in a lot of crazy situations before and never thought of myself as a victim.  Plus, I’m being really honest here, there’s the whole fantasy aspect .  I mean, if I imagined something like that happening, going home with a group of guys, did that give me the right to be upset about it after it actually happened?  And things are different in the gay world.  People have three-ways, four-ways, orgies, and drugs are almost always involved.   Now maybe nine times out of ten, that situation is totally safe.  But in my case, that one night changed my life forever.

AP:  A lot of people will think you’re very brave in coming forward about it.  Was there also an aspect of pressure to not say anything because of how it reflects on the gay party scene?

RC:  I hear what you’re saying.  For me, that didn’t figure in as much.  Maybe because I didn’t live through the experience.  I didn’t have to face people I knew from that scene and deal with people’s reactions.  It was a lot more of an internal struggle.  But once I got past that, it really wasn’t so hard to tell my story.  I mean sexual abuse or rape are things that affect a lot of people.  If I can be honest about it, maybe that helps someone else.

AP:  So you could be a role model after all.

RC:  Maybe.

AP:  Your story is about becoming an angel.  That has a lot of religious connotations that bothered you at first.

RC:  It did.  Until I understood what it was really about.  I mean, I haven’t converted to Christianity or anything.  Being an angel has nothing to do with that.

AP:  You’re a Jewish angel?

RC:  I’m a “cultural Jewish” angel.

AP:  Very cool.  So, what’s it like being “on the other side?”

RC:  Not as different as you might think.  I mean, there are days when I forget that it’s any different.  The people are different.  The places are different.  Angels travel between two worlds – the mortal world and the afterlife.  And in a way, we’re not really part of either of them, which was kind of lonely at first, but then you discover there’s other people, other angels like you.

AP:  And I understand you have a love interest.

RC:  [cocks head and blushes] Yeah.  I met someone.

AP:  Allright.  I think I know who my next interview is going to be.  But Richard, we’re just about out of time.  We’re going to have to move on to the speed round.

RC:  Ok.

AP:  Here goes.  Ultimate Pop Diva:  Lady Gaga or Madonna?

RC:  Madonna.

AP:  Wow – that’s kind of a surprise.  When were you born?  Like 1989?

RC:  You gotta respect your elders.

AP:  Good enough.  OK.  NYC neighborhood:  Chelsea or Hell’s Kitchen?

RC: East Village, man!

AP:  Allright.  Time to update my questions.  How ’bout Starbucks or Dunkin’ Donuts?

RC:  Starbucks.  Iced Coffee with a double shot of espresso.  Can’t beat it.

AP:  Social Networking:  MySpace or Facebook?

RC:  I had accounts on both of them, but I’d have to go with Grindr.

AP:  You’re not sticking to my questions.  What the hell is Grindr?

RC:  It’s an Iphone app.  You browse through people’s profiles, see where they’re at and find out if they want to meet up.

AP:  Oh!  Kinda like GPS, right?  Guess I’m really showing my age here.  Lemme see if I’ve got anything left in my script here.  Designer jeans:  True Religion or Diesel?

RC:  That’s a hard one.  I’m gonna have to go with Diesel.

AP:  Ok.  Fantasy date:  Robert Pattinson or Taylor Lautner?

RC:  Pattinson by a landslide.

AP:  Great.  That’s all we have time for.  I think you scored three out of six.  Thanks again, Richard.  This has been really fun.  Are you up for sticking around if visitors to the site have questions?

RC:  Sure.

Who is Richard Carroll?

I thought I’d do something different this week and interview the main character from my work-in-progress WHEN THE FALLEN ANGELS FLY.  This is the first half of a two-part interview.

Some background:  Richard Carroll is a 21-year-old Hamilton College student who gained notoriety when his  body was found on a beach in Fire Island.  An investigation into his death uncovered frightening details of a night spun out of control by sex and drugs.  This interview marks the first time Richard has spoken to the media since his death.

ANDREW PETERS:  Richard, thanks so much for taking the time to let me interview you.

RICHARD CARROLL:  No problem.

AP:  A lot of readers will be interested in what happened to you, but I thought we’d start off with a little bit about your background.  You’re a Jersey Boy, right?

RC:  Yep.  I grew up in Teaneck.

AP:  Jersey Boys have a reputation for being nice guys.  Do you find that true?

RC:  Um…yeah.  I guess you could say that.  I mean, growing up in Jersey it’s pretty hard to be pretentious and all superior.  Maybe that’s where it comes from.  That and the clean living. [ironic smirk]

AP:  In your book, you touch on some of the tougher spots in your childhood and adolescence.  How do you feel those experiences shaped you?

RC:  Look:  I think everyone has had their share of hard knocks to deal with.  I don’t think my experiences were so character-defining or special.   Yeah – my parents got divorced when I was thirteen.  It was pretty horrible at the time.  Looking back, I recognize it was the best thing for the two of them, but sure, I still carry my resentments.  My dad was having an affair.  My mom can be a really difficult person.  The divorce was messy – fighting, using my sister and I as pawns, long stretches of time without hearing anything from my dad.  I think my dad ultimately gave up and disappeared.  It was lame on one hand, understandable on the other.

AP:  You also had to face the additional challenge of coming out as gay.

RC:  Y’know, I never thought of it as a challenge.  Actually, discovering I was gay was something that I think saved me in a way.  It gave me an out when things were batshit crazy at home.  I could get on the Internet, hook up with guys, just get out of the house and into my own space.

AP:  So you never had any doubts, mixed feelings?  You never got any rip for being gay?

RC:  In my high school, you got rip if you didn’t listen to the right music or have the right cell phone or if you participated in lame cliché’s like pep rallies and school dances.  Being gay didn’t figure in so much as maybe being overweight or having really bad skin.  Sure there were a few homophobic dicks but everyone pretty much hated them anyway.

AP:  Your dad is Irish Catholic, your mom Eastern European Jewish.  How did that affect the way you identify culturally.

RC:  Well, Jewishness is passed down from the mother, so I’m Jewish by default.  But neither one of my parents were very ethnic or religious.  My mom considers herself a “cultural Jew,” which means you don’t go to temple for any of the holidays but you eat all the appropriate food.  I guess I’m pretty much the same way.  Religion skivves me.

AP:  If your story got picked up by a major publishing house, you’d be one of very few gay heroes in mainstream literature.  Does that prospect put a burden on you?  Are you a role model?

RC:  If I’m a role model, there’s a lot of people headed for disaster.  [Laughs]  A role model.  For what?  How to turn your life into a fabulous tragedy?

AP:  You do party a lot and have a lot of sex and drink and do drugs.  Do you think that obviates the chance for readers to relate to you in a positive way?

RC:  I don’t know.  I guess I can’t really control how people relate to me.  I have trouble relating to myself at times.  If people want to judge me for the choices I’ve made, they have every right to do that.  I think I see where you’re going with the whole “gay role model” thing.  I understand it.  Gay people need more role models, for the kid who’s getting the shit beaten out of him at school or the young guys who’re being unsafe ’cause they think they’ll find love by having sex.  But being a role model was never on my mind while I was out partying.  And I wasn’t in some crazy spiral of depression over how horrible it is to be gay.  I was just trying to live my life.

AP:  Who were your role models?

RC:  [Long pause.  Smiles.] Probably not the right ones, I guess.  My cousin Matty.  He was always this sort of unattainable epitome of cool for me.  He looks like this model/surfer dude, and everyone he meets falls in love with him.  He’s just really good with people.  And talented too.  He’s like this amazing deejay.

And my Grandmom Rini.  She managed to keep me and my sister somewhat sane when my mom and dad were splitting up.  Just a really great person.  [wipes his eyes and scowls].  Man, you’re getting me all emotional!

AP:  Just call me Barbara Walters.  We’ll take a break and get back to some questions next week.