What I did on Thanksgiving vacation

So this was supposed to be the week I got a lot of writing done.   I knew there’d be Thanksgiving dinner prep work to do, but I figured I’d have at least two full days free and clear.

Then, the sinus infection.

I spiked a fever over the weekend, went to the doctor on Monday and started a prescription for an antibiotic.  I’ve still gotten some writing done here and there even if it’s not as much as I would’ve liked.  Lessee…I’m over 50K with my re-write, up to page 154 of 198, and Richard and Rafi are having a blowup over Richard’s training as an angel.    Fight scenes are fun to write, especially from the Richard’s point of view.   He’s a headstrong 22 year old who thinks he knows everything about life.  After this scene, I’m predicting smooth sailing writing-wise to the end of Part II in the novel.  Working on Part III during Xmas vacation?  We’ll see.

I also got my copy of Ganymede Stories One over the weekend.  Very cool to see THE VAIN PRINCE in print.  The anthology includes stories by thirteen gay male writers and reprints by Robert Louis Stevenson (The Adventure of the Hanson Cab) and Oscar Wilde (Lord Arthur Savile’s Crime).  The distinctly grandiose British language in the latter two is a trip.  As I read them, I kept thinking about the conventional writing wisdom:  “show, don’t tell” and “be sparing with your use of adjectives and adverbs.”  How our literary tastes have changed!   But I think RLS and Wilde both have a great sense of dialogue which  teaches us something about the craft of writing today.

For me, the other stand-outs from the anthology are Eric Karl Anderson’s Beauty Number Two and Sam Miller’s Breaking the Bough.   Anderson’s piece is about an upwardly-mobile, “domesticated” gay man in Los Angeles who is drawn to an HIV-positive leather daddy.  His casual curiosity turns into sexual obsession and a potentially dangerous encounter.  This story stayed with me for days though it was difficult to read.  I found the main character, his partner and their circle of friends entirely unlikeable.  They’re materialistic, looks-obsessed, bitchy queens, and it was hard for me to get behind such a brutal depiction of gay men.   In my mind, there are two dangers in writing such a portrayal, but I think Anderson transcends both of them in a rather spectacular way.  First, you could end up with a piece where the characters are so one-dimensional or villainized that no one cares about them.  Second, a more insidious danger is when the only context for the flawed characters is oppression, thereby multiplying the unlikeability of the characters by a factor of victimhood.  The Boys in the Band and Brokeback Mountain used the latter disastrous formula which is why I can’t stand watching either film.   IMHO, Anderson narrowly escapes either trap by showing us another side of his self-absorbed, cheating protagonist in a single, unexpected moment (I won’t give it away).

My other favorite Breaking the Bough also deals with gay domestic themes though of a decidedly modern variety.  Will and Ted have just moved into an apartment in Harlem with their daughter Lily and Lily’s lesbian birthmother Fannie.  The story is essentially about Will’s fear of losing Lily despite he and Ted’s carefully brokered arrangement with Fannie.  For me, the subject of gay families evokes a wealth of opportunities for conflict, drama and fresh points of view, but what I especially liked about Miller’s piece was his use of setting as a catalyst for character development.  Will is a well-meaning, culturally-exposed guy, but like most of us white, middle class folks, he has some racial hang-ups.   Miller handles Will’s internal conflict about living in a low income, Black neighborhood with subtlety and realism.   When discussing the problem of garbage-littered streets, Will offers to Ted:  “It gives the neighborhood character.”  To which Ted replies:  “It’s so like you to romanticize squalor.”  Those little details are what I really enjoyed in this piece in addition to the allegorical and suspenseful subplot about an arsonist at large in the neighborhood.

Rewrite blues

So I resolved to post a progress report on my writing projects every Wednesday.  This one barely makes deadline at 11:38PM EST.  I have an excuse.  I came down with a pretty bad head cold last week and am still getting back up to 100%.  I’ve got my box of tissues stationed by the keyboard.

My manuscript is up to 49.6K words / 194 pages.  That may sound like decent progress but here’s the thing.  I reached a scene where Richard’s relationship with his angel mentor Rafi takes a critical turn, and it just didn’t read right.  I realized I needed to go back and evaluate previous scenes between the two guys.  My diagnosis:  more rewiting and finetuning.  I’m trying to really get into Richard’s head.  Kind of frustrating since I thought I knew the guy after almost five months of “living” with him and charting out his life.  Oh well.  It’s part of the process.  This set me back about 50 pages so I’m actually further from the end of my manuscript than I was last week.

But hopefully the story is getting stronger.  Next week, I have two full days to devote to writing.  I’m hoping my pre-Thanksgiving post will be full of optimism.  Right now, Richard is once again immersing himself in psychology texts to figure out how to think like a psychotherapist.  But he’s not whiny.

Publication Pre-Release!

Just found out from editor John Stahle that my first publication is available for pre-release!  Ganymede Stories One, featuring my short story THE VAIN PRINCE, can be purchased on-line here.  My story made it into the anthology along with reprints by some lesser known writers like Robert Louis Stevenson and Oscar Wilde.  (ha, ha)  Check it out and let me know what you think.

Wednesday Progress Report

Not a stellar week for me in terms of output.  I only worked through 20 pages of WHEN THE FALLEN ANGELS FLY since last Wednesday, but  I was off the mark when I said that this is a re-read and light edit.  It’s practically a re-write.  The 2/3rds finished manuscript started at 45K words and now it’s up to 47.5K.  So I’m adding to it as I go along, sort of three steps forward, two steps back.  Mostly I’ve been fine-tuning Richard Carroll’s motivation.  He’s almost halfway through his journey to become an angel and still coming across as a whiner.  But I had a little breakthrough last night.  Right now, Richard, rematerialized as a middle-aged Manhattan psychotherapist, is teaching himself the trade so that he can help the witness to his murder who’s a heroin addict and self-injurer.  I’ve got about 50 pages to go until I reach where I left off with this manuscript five weeks ago.

The most exciting news is that I got some really encouraging feedback from a reader of THE REGISTRATION.  It totally made my week.  Enough to reconsider going through the manuscript one more time and sending it out to agents and small houses again.  This is my goal for early 2010.

So other than that, I set up profile on GLBT Bookshelf and skulked around a few writers  on-line communities.  I’ve got some vacation coming up from work when I can dedicate big chunks of time to writing.  I can’t wait!

Gay and Non-Gay markets

I’m trying to find a “home” for several of my short stories.  Most of them are gay-themed — IN A WINE PHASE, CROTCHWATCHERS, MIKE’S POND.  Some of them are not — THE TROUBLE WITH FINKLESTEINS.  My standby resource is Duotrope Digest, which is a free, searchable database of literary publications.  A search of journals that are interested in ‘GLBT’ themes gets me a list of 43 pubs, but over half are lesbian-oriented, the remaining half are about 50% adult/erotica, and the rest are mainly genre-specific (sci fi, fantasy, or romance) .   One journal I want to check out is Chroma, a queer pub based in the UK and listed as open to a variety of genres.

I’m also trying to identify the mainstream journals that have occasionally published gay-themed stories;  there are so damn many to go through it could be a full-time job.  The publishing business has changed, as it has for the broader entertainment industry.   The number of gay-identified prints is shrinking while the mainstream media increasingly incorporates LGBT voices.  I’m not sure how I feel about it.  It’s nice that there’s greater access to literary LGBT portrayals and storylines just as you can find more LGBT characters on network television and wide-release movies.  But I find there’s still a lack of depth to LGBT characters in commercialized projects .  It’s the difference between watching Modern Family on ABC versus an independent film on Here! TV (I especially enjoy Here’s Donald Strachey series, Paradise Falls and Dante’s Cove).

So this isn’t exactly a rant.  In my limited research of the short story market, I’ve discovered many journals that publish LGBT-themed lit.  Ploughshares, for example, had a great memoir about working with LGBT youth in foster care by Ryan Berg in its Fall 2008 issue.  But I still think there’s something special about a cozy queer publication that you can read through cover to cover and get lost in an LGBT-centered world.