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MEDIA ALERT! I sat down with Vance and Baz to talk about Slashed and Mashed, mythology, diversity in queer lit, cultural appropriation and a whole bunch of other things. Those two guys run an amazing podcast, which is now up to episode 243. Pretty darn impressive. They both have an awesome sense of humor too.

So take a listen either at their website or better yet subscribe to their show on Apple Podcasts or iHeart Radio or wherever you listen to ‘casts. If you read LGBTQ+ fiction, you’ll likely find an interview with one of your favorite authors. And let me know what you think of my interview. 🙂

Why I’m an ally for women’s reproductive freedom

Protestors in Alabama

Retrieved from Democracy Now website: https://www.democracynow.org/2019/5/20/headlines/protesters_in_alabama_missouri_defend_reproductive_rights_from_recent_abortion_bans

I’ve been thinking about LGBTQ+ issues as the International Day Against Homophobia and Transphobia passed on May 17th and thinking about women’s reproductive rights while states like Alabama have been enacting bizarre and grotesque laws demeaning and diminishing female personhood. Every now and then, I post some political commentary here. It doesn’t have a lot to do with what I write, but it’s a big part of who I am. If you’re curious, here’s some stuff I wrote about the Charlottesville Unite the Right Rally, #TransgenderRightAreHumanRights, and the Writers Resist movement.

Today, I’m struck by the essential alliance between queer rights advocacy and women’s rights advocacy and wanting to defend women’s reproductive freedom in particular as a gay male ally.

I actually got involved in women’s rights issues before I had the courage to come out and talk about queer rights. My mother’s quiet democratic values inspired me from a young age. She decried racism and anti-Semitism and was a terrific female role model. From back when I was in elementary school, she talked to me about women’s equality by sharing the story of her mother, who died before I was born. My maternal grandmother was the valedictorian of her high school class and was pushed toward nursing school rather than college even though she had the potential to be a doctor. Nursing is of course a challenging and honorable service profession, but the point was sexist social attitudes place limitations on women’s lives. And, not incidentally, this was a lesson to me that’s it’s never too young to talk to kids about sexism, racism, and other systems of oppression. Some of the most impactful stories are from our childhood, and in my case, it helped me become an ally.

My mother wanted to have opportunities her mother could not have. She went to a four-year college and had a brief career as a biologist at a cancer research center before her life took a more traditional turn. She left her job when my older brother was born, and she was a stay-at-home mom up until I was a little further along in elementary school. Then she went back to school for computer science, one of a handful of women in the graduate program while also one of the oldest students in her class. She completed her degree and went on to manage information technology policy, literacy and training at New York State’s largest public university. I grew up a firm believer in women’s equality and appreciating the tremendous courage and determination it takes to succeed in male-dominated professions.

I think instinctively I understood the connection between women’s rights generally and their reproductive rights specifically. The latter was an issue I knew my mom supported, but we didn’t talk about it much. For me, it just felt obvious that a part of a person’s humanity and freedom was their ability to make decisions about their body. Actually, it felt terrifying that someone could take that away from you, and the way religious organizations tried to shame women about their sexuality angered me.

Buffalo, New York where I grew up was one of Operation Rescue’s target cities in the early 90s. Led by Reverend Randall Terry, they travelled around the country to picket abortion clinics with their famous fetus jar displays. I’ve participated in a lot of protests in my life, and to this day, one of my favorites was counter-protesting Randall Terry in Buffalo along with my four housemates at the time (all of whom were straight men). Most of them had never done anything political related to women’s reproductive freedom, but we all felt at our core the protestors were wrong, and there was an urgency to supporting women’s reproductive choice.

There was something at stake for me personally though I probably would not have known how to voice it at the time. The anti-reproductive freedom position is based on so-called traditional or family values with the goal of erasing social progress and re-establishing (or establishing for the first time in some cases) laws and norms based on Christian fundamentalist doctrine. I was reminded just today on a news program that many states still have laws criminalizing adultery. Of course, anti-sodomy laws still exist in many places. These “blue laws” are the legacy of the 19th century Protestant reform movement, which successfully inserted their morals and traditions into legal codes across the country.

As a young man listening to the talking points of the anti-choice side of the abortion debate, I realized I also had a target on my back. Their family values envisioned good Christian men marrying good Christian women, castigating sex outside of marriage, and often most vehemently, declaring homosexuality a perversion that is to blame for everything from single parent households to hurricanes and earthquakes. Even before I accepted I was gay, I recognized that worldview was pretty much diametrically opposed to how I lived my life, or planned to live my life. As a young adult, freedom generally was important to me, but also as someone who was drawn to secular humanism much more than any religion, I saw the rhetoric and positions of the Christian Right as defamatory and unfair.

So bringing this back to May 2019, I’m reminded – almost daily reminded since November 2016 – how fragile achievements in the women’s rights movement and the LGBT rights movement are. In addition to the assault on women’s reproductive rights, folks are working on the presidential level, congressional level, and state and local level to push Religious Freedom laws to weaken LGBT civil liberties and legally enshrine Christian fundamentalists’ right to hate us. Such laws would also limit women’s reproductive freedom. We’ve already seen cases of pharmacists who refuse to dispense birth control pills to women. And the Trump administration successfully established a ban on transgender people serving in the military.

This is wrong. This is a critical time for folks who care about women’s lives and dignity to come together. Because it’s not just about one issue. It’s a systematic attack on the values and norms that allow a pluralistic, democratic society to thrive. We’ve been at this juncture before. Many of us just never thought we’d be back there again. I stand up as an ally to women’s reproductive freedom for my mom, for women everywhere, and to acknowledge this is an issue that men—gay and straight—care about as well.

Some thoughts on small press publishing

From time to time, people stop by my blog with comments and questions about my journey to get my books published and the business side of being an author. I’m hardly a huge success story, but I’ve been doing this writing thing for a little while. So I thought I’d do something different and share a bit about my experience being a small press author. Full credit to Victoria Sheridan, a fellow NineStar Press author, who wrote this piece on the subject for the NaNoWriMo blog and got me thinking about the idea.

I actually have titles with four small presses so I guess that gives me some cred on the subject. First off, I should explain there’s three main pathways to getting your book published: big press, small press, and self-publishing. I’ve also had some experience with self-publishing through some short fiction I published on Smashwords and a romance/erotica novel I published on Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP) under a pen name.

The big press route is the most coveted pathway for authors. I don’t think I’ve ever met an author who didn’t start out with that goal in mind. As publishing corporations have shrunk and merged due to declining sales over the past decade or so, five publishing houses are left as “The Big Five.” They make up an estimated 80 percent of market and offer the largest distribution networks, promotion/marketing resources, advances for authors (i.e. you get paid something up front before your book makes sales), “social capital” to generate buzz and opportunities, and the much sought-after stamp of prestige.

I tried the big press route with most of my titles figuring it made sense to aim high first and give my books the best chance of discoverability. With rare exception, an author needs a literary agent to get their book considered by one of the big houses, thus the first slow and agonizing step in the process is to query agents who can sell the kind of book you’ve written.

If an agent accepts you as a client, you’ve increased your chances of getting published by a big press, though results can greatly vary. I had an agent for Irresistible who had nearly four decades of experience repping gay literature for example, and she couldn’t get any editors she works with interested in it. She candidly shared with me the number of big house editors interested in gay fiction has dwindled such that she can count them on one hand. Fiction generally is the softer side of big house income, resulting in greater reliance on authors to do some of the marketing themselves, even presenting a business plan and an established following in some cases. Thus, landing a book at a big press has become ever more elusive for many of us.

Self-publishing is the accessible alternative and has become quite popular via platforms like Amazon’s KDP program. The advantages are control over production, marketing, pricing, and of course getting a much bigger share of sales. KDP for example pays authors 70% of list price. Big presses pay as little as 8-10% on hardcover and paperback sales, 20-25% on e-books.

On the other hand, self-publishing requires a considerable outlay of money in order to start making sales, from editing and design services to marketing costs. Moreover, the most successful self-published authors churn out a ton of books in order to establish a following so the sense of being free to DIY however you want has some limits. According to writer sites like Reedsy, it’s become pretty much obligatory to focus on writing serials if you have expectations of generating income as a self-published author.

I dabbled in self-publishing as somewhat of an experiment. I had a couple pieces of short fiction I thought might be useful as freebies to entice readers to check out my longer work. Then, I had a more [ahem] mature novel I thought I’d try on KDP out of curiosity and really for the fun of it.

I did practically nothing to market the short fiction pieces on Smashwords. One story which is permafree has gotten about 600 downloads since it was published almost five years ago. The other story, published just last year, got 40 downloads when it was free for a two-week trial period and has since gotten about 40 downloads while priced at 99 cents. So, nothing too impressive there.

And there’s no way to track if those downloads led to purchases of my other books. Smashwords allows you to mention other titles inside a book published on their platform, but they prohibit direct links to competitor retailers like Amazon. My guess is any buy-through activity has been very light.

The novel at KDP, also barely marketed, has sold 20 copies over a one-year period, leaving me pretty deep in the red as I paid $500 for editing and book design.

I said this post was going to be about my experience with small press publishing, but I thought that lead-in was helpful to put things in context. Small presses, sometimes called independent presses, are often described as that world in-between the big houses and self-publishing since they offer some of the advantages and some of the limitations of both of those routes.

Most small presses will take unagented submissions, and they’re quite specific about what they’re looking for. For instance, I was encouraged by the number of independent publishers who are enthusiastic about LGBTQIA+ fiction, and I found homes for several of my titles at Bold Strokes Books and NineStar Press, which publish LGBTQIA+ fiction exclusively.

Now I should say, when I refer to myself as a small press author (primarily), I mean a small press. There are scores of independent publishers outside of the Big Five, and they vary in size. The bigger ones might have a staff of twenty and publish over 100 titles annually. The smaller ones might have one or two people running the business and a pool of editors, production staff and marketing folks they hire for projects, altogether publishing a dozen or less titles each year. That describes all four of my publishers.

As such, their response time to submissions was generally gradual. I waited six months to receive offers on two of my titles. The quickest turnaround was for Werecat – two weeks, and that project also has the distinction of having a 100% success rate. I really liked the publisher’s mission statement and backlist and sent them an exclusive submission.

Bold Strokes paid a $500 advance for each of the first two books I published with them (The Seventh Pleiade and Banished Sons of Poseidon) and offered $200 on the third since I had not earned back my advances on the other books. My other three publishers do not provide advances, but their contract terms were largely more favorable. The best is a 50/50 split on both print and e-book sales with no right of first refusal on future titles.

An advantage over self-publishing is a small press provides professional editing, proofing, cover design, copyrighting, and placement/distribution at no cost to the author. While my experience has varied somewhat with my four publishers, I’ve largely been ushered through that process with personalized attention and a collaborative approach, which may be less common when working with a big house due to the volumes of titles their business plan demands. There’s nothing quite like working with an editor who is genuinely enthusiastic about your book, and I’m grateful to have had that experience with several of my titles (special shout-out to my fabulous NineStar editor Elizabetta!).

Now regarding placement and distribution, only one of the four presses I’ve worked with has a distribution plan for trade paperbacks that is even slightly comparable to the big houses, i.e. actively working to get their titles into brick-and-mortar booksellers, trade shows, and libraries. And even so, I saw those efforts trickle off with my three titles. As one metric, the first title got picked up by 36 libraries across the country and around the world according to World Cat. The second title got into 11. The third got into 2. And I saw a similar trend with Barnes and Noble, which briefly had a handful of stores carry the first two titles and never picked up book #3.

One of my small presses is e-book only, and another is e-book mainly because they use a print-on-demand service to publish paperbacks. That’s a significant limitation as paperback readers will never find the titles off-line, and even the bookstores and libraries I approached to inquire about carrying the title had a difficult time finding the book via wholesale distributors like Ingram.

Regarding promotion and marketing, there’s no question small presses have a lot of limitations, though there can be an upside that I’ll get to. That ‘biggest’ small press Bold Strokes offered the most in that department such as paying for exhibit booths at book fairs, entering titles in awards programs, and providing authors with ten free copies of the title to give away as samples to get it into bookstores and libraries and send to early reviewers.

One of my publishers places titles on NetGalley, and another uses the early reviewer giveaway program at LibraryThing. They all use social media and mailing lists, but being small companies, their reach is pretty modest. Their contracts include clauses about marketing being a “partnership,” and while the terms of that are non-binding and don’t require authors to spend money in that area, it’s been my experience across the board that small press authors must become the primary ambassadors of their titles.

I’d estimate I spent 100 hours or more on each of my titles via social media work, querying book bloggers, sending out to my own mailing list, running giveaways, creating related content for my website, and various forms of networking. I do readings at local bookstores and book fairs and conferences. I’ve also spent between $100-500 for each book on ads at Facebook and book promotion sites and printing promotional materials.

The impact can feel bleak. My best-selling title has sold 500 copies since its release in 2013. Two of my titles have only sold marginally better than that self-published novel I put up at KDP with close to zero marketing effort. Yep, I’m talking double digits.

The biggest success has been my e-novelette The Rearing, Book One in the Werecat series, which is approaching 15,000 downloads. That’s largely due to the e-book going permafree in 2017 and brings me to an upside to working with a small press.

Small presses can be innovative and flexible when it comes to promotion. That deal I brokered to set The Rearing permafree at retailers gave the series a second life after a period of declining sales, and the publisher’s willingness to collaborate on a pricing strategy is something that’s less likely to happen when working with a big house.

Another one of my publishers sponsored a live Facebook chat that was a fun way to launch the title, and another has a Facebook group with lively discussion and resource-sharing on everything from how to get the most out of tabling at a book fair to tips for getting books into libraries and connecting with vlogs and podcasters. I’ve found there’s not a lot a small press will do for you marketing-wise, but at their best, they’re a great source of information on how to DIY so there’s definitely value added there. I’ve learned a ton about media opportunities and how to make the best use out of Facebook and Goodreads. Most importantly, I’ve developed relationships with a lot of fellow authors, which is a huge source of mutual support and has often led to opportunities I would have never discovered by myself.

So I’d say the biggest benefit of being a small press author is being part of a community. Writing can be a lonely journey, and it helps to know you’re not traveling on your own. I cross-promote with other authors, commiserate when things aren’t going well (we all need that validation), and on the other side, we celebrate each other’s successes. For me, small presses are the realistic way to get my books published since I don’t have the expertise to design my own books, market them effectively, nor the funds to pay for professional editing and a publicist.

A Gran Canaria Photo Essay

Me and my husband at Catedral de Santa Ana

My husband and I met our German friends in Gran Canaria for our annual summer vacation. Here we are atop the 16th century Catedral de Santa Ana in the old district of Las Palmas, where you can see the cathedral’s cimborrio (cupola) and the nearby Atlantic Ocean in the background.

Me and our German friends in Arguineguin

And here’s me with our German friends (l to r) Thorsten and Jurgen at the Plaza Las Maranuelas in the south coast village of Arguineguin where we sought out a fish restaurant for dinner that was closed for the St. James Day festival.

dog statue in Plaza de Santa Ana

I found some statues of interest in Las Palmas. At the Plaza de Santa Ana, there are eight dogs guarding the cathedral, a nod to the island’s history. Canary comes from the Latin: insula canaria – island of dogs. Gran Canaria was named by the Romans, and the historian Pliny the Elder claimed that it was inhabited by “multitudes of dogs of very large size,” which is something of a mystery. There certainly are no longer wild dogs living on the Canary Islands, and it has been speculated that the association with dogs may have been a misappropriation refering to the barking monk seal, though monk seals are no longer found on the islands either. The Greeks called the Guanche natives “the dog-headed ones,” which could have been a reference to a priestly worship of dogs (similar to the Egyptians).

Statue of Nestor Alamo

Of course, I could not resist posing with a statue of a local literary icon: Nestor Alamo. who was a musical composer and writer. This is also in the old district of Las Palmas.

White cat at hotel

Meanwhile, we saw many more cats than dogs. This fellow was a resident of our hotel and liked bossing his companions around.

Lily pad pool at Jardin Botanico

The Jardín Botánico Canario Viera y Clavijo, near Las Palmas, is Spain’s largest public garden and I’d say a must see. I took a ton of photos and chose to share this close-up shot from the lily pad pool.

House at Agaete

We visited the village of Agaete on the north coast, which was settled in the 16th century and retains much of its original Spanish colonial architecture.

Tomb at Guanche cemetery

Also at Agaete, an important archeological site known as Maipes, the Valley of Death. Reconstructed stone tombs on a Guanche burial site where the dead were mummified and laid within circular or boat-shaped mounds of volcanic rock.

Pico de Teide in the distance

View from above Agaete. The faint silhouette across the water is visible most days looking out from the northwestern coast. It’s the island of Tenerife with its prominent volcanic mountain Pico de Teide. Snow-capped, Pico de Teide is the third tallest volcano in the world and the highest mountain in the Atlantic Ocean.

One of the highlights of the trip for me was discovering remote Guayedra Beach on the western coast of the island. It’s only accessible via a short but fairly rugged hike off the road, and the reward was spectacular. I had hoped to find the even more remote Gui Gui beach during the trip, though the idea didn’t catch on with my companions. That beach requires a two and a half hour hike over very difficult terrain. Maybe next visit.

Fabrica CEISA

The Fabrica CEISA, a cement factory, is a strange industrial landmark that is perenially in view around the southeastern coast of the island. A reminder you’re not far aloft from the modern world despite the island’s wide swaths of protected parkland and its quaint seaside villages.

The Aphrodite

We took a day-trip aboard a “Turkish gulet” called The Aphrodite, and I failed to take good photos of the old-fashioned, wooden sailboat, but here’s one.

Dolphin

And, on that sail, we saw dolphins, which nearly eluded me completely photo-wise, but here’s a middling shot.

Wind turbine

Wind turbines are ubiquitous on the island, and quite a reasonable way to generate energy on one of the windiest islands in the world. Surprisingly, wind energy is only used marginally at present, but there’s a project underway to better harness the output of Gran Canaria’s wind turbines using its inland reservoirs as something like storage batteries, however that’s done.

Caldera de Tejeda

At an overlook to the Caldera de Tejeda, a volacnic crater.

Mirador del Balcon

Another breath-taking vista is the Mirador del Balcon, which was built on a jutting cliff on the western coast of Gran Canaria.

Friar's Rock and Roque Nuble

The most famous landmark of the island is a sacred rock formation known as Roque Nuble, atop one of the highest points in the island. The lesser rock to the left is called Friar’s Rock due to its unique shape and seeming protective gaze toward Roque Nuble. Here we were at the foot of the trail up to the top.

Market at Teror

We visited a popular market in the beautiful mountain village of Teror. Market stalls are set up around the town’s beloved basilica Nuestra Senora del Pino, a tribute to the Virgin Mary. I bought a locally-made spicy mojo which is used as a seasoning for the traditional dish papas arrugadas (wrinkled potatoes). We ate a lot of those at tapas restaurants and elsewhere.

Fountain stairs at Teror

We found this charming fountain stairway while walking around Teror.

Wood balcony at Teror

Once again, not showing off my best photographic skill, but I took some shots of the characteristic wooden balconies of Teror.

Fataga Valley

Driving through the central mountains, we came to the Fataga Valley, which is something like a miniature Grand Canyon, though it’s too dry to have a river in its center, just some shrubby greenery and palm trees that survive from the moisture in the air. It only rains five days of the year on average.

Zig Zag road from Fataga

Part of the zig zag road we took down from Fataga to Maspalomas.

Street art at Arguineguin

Just some street art I found while walking through Arguineguin.

Fountain statue

Could not resist snapping a shot of this fountain statue near Lopesan Shopping Center in Meloneras. I didn’t find any information about it, but it could be a representation of Triton, son of Poseidon and Amphitrite, as there’s a famous statue of him in Las Palmas.

Maspalomas Dunes

We hiked the trail through the famous Maspalomas dunes on an overcast but very hot day. You can take camel rides through the dunes as well, which would have been a must more pleasant way to travel.

Maspalomas Dunes

Here you can see folks who climbed to the top of one of the dunes.

Sand Castles at Maspalomas

We walked the boardwalk along Maspalomas beach, which is a favorite spot for artists to make sandcastles.

Pink peonies

Pink peonies were abundant throughout the Meloneras district where we stayed.

Me at Agaete

And that’s my trip to Gran Canaria. Amazing scenery, I learned a thing or two, and had a great time with my husband and our friends. 🙂

Some photos from the BGS-QD Pride Reading

Last night was great! What better way to celebrate Pride month than reading fierce, audacious, queer stories in what must be the queerest bookstore in New York City (if not the United States, the world?).

Many thanks to our fearless leader Tom Cardamone (The Lurid Sea, Green Thumb), and the owners of Bureau of General Services – Queer Division Greg and Donnie!

I’ll keep this post-event dispatch brief, just sharing a few photos from the event with captions.

BGS-QD Sandwich Board

BGS-QD Panel

Here are all the authors (l to r): Nora Olsen (Maxine Wore Black), Ann Apkater (Cantor Gold series), Tom Cardamone (The Lurid Sea), Nell Stark (The Princess Deception), Alexa Black (The Outcasts), and me

BGS-QD Deniro Hello

My favorite shot from the night. We invited folks from the audience to join us to give President Trump a Robert Deniro Hello from the queer literary community. You can see some of the cool artwork on display throughou the shop.